though my life been crushing guy's heart and make them suffer, i know i'll get that karma back soon. but what i know i did that to make me think for myself moving on with this life what i called. im hurt in the past and i been too emotional and brought it to other person. for every shit that is happening to me. i been dating and been contacting with a player. i still find jealousy and shits feelings. its not that you whom i hate the most, its you whom i fall in love with. i know you took great care of me whenever im with you. everything change, and i want tell you that i love you again. i been lacking nothing but self-esteem. i was dumb. what people say abt me, its about everything that you dont wish to hear. seriously, its like the new us and the new love thing. but i am being mean to you, oh gosh whats wrong with me?

i've been chiling with the other guy and i swear they're effing different from one another. i have been hanging out with him for 2days and its just a crush now. everything was new. the feeling, the atmosphere, the shy kind of type and all sorts of trauma shits that you gave me. i am thinking far but at least this is my escape frm misery. for the moment now only.

things with you, it permanent and i swear that your name is nveer be spoken if we are never ok. lets go baby to that place once call shits & drama. lets end that without thunder and all and i love you.