for what it's worth

my confessions is for what it's worth

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Title : happy happy birthday to me

dear all,

i just wanted to thank you for the impromptu birthday celebration. thank you so much for celebrating my birthday with me and for the wonderful gifts, wishes and cakes. you guys makes it a special day for me. i appreciate all, everything, including your time and attention in the midst of your own hectic schedules. and i had a great time celebrating my birthday with my loved ones with different people. i've never felt like this before .. i feel so happy yet sad, just like a little princess without a prince. but afterall, it was very thoughtful and much appreciated!

xoxo loves, me ♥♥♥

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Title : Happy Birthday Wish

3 more days to my birthday, and it feels like forever. on this special day this year, am not really expecting anything from anyone but all i want is to spend some quality time with my loved ones. i wanna feel like a princess. i want to have fun, and be happy. so please, please, make me feel loved <3

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Title : anything im not

my past hurts me so bad and that's the reason why i don't want to talk about it. i don't want it to be the reason for me to cry again.

17th october, the day i restored my iphone and lost everything. i delete my past and restore myself to start a new life. i'm doing the best i can, the best for me. a new beginning, all by myself.

reality hit me hard and i'm not gonna cry, instead i'll smile. therefore, i'm leaving everything behind with only memories to start a new fresh life.

i'm not sure whether what i'm doing is right or not because i'm not ready to face everything, but i've seen enough! honestly, i'm tired of waiting for you.

only 5 more days until my birthday, and no i've not made up my mind about it. once it's over, i'm just gonna hide myself away but i'll come back again someday! it's hurting me, and i dont know what's wrong with me. what's worth fighting for ...

i don't want to be the one, cause inside i realize that i'm one confused and i'm in a complete mess. gimme a break, a little escape. i am so tired of being me. i wanna be free, i wanna be new & different. i'm going to stop to be someone else and i'm going to learn to love myself more.

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Title : i'm staying strong

it's hurting me. i don't know what's going on right now. i don't have much energy to go further anymore ..

my parents has pretty much given up on me.. they sacrificed a lot for me but end up, i'm hurting them so bad giving them shitsxz and i hate everything about myself because i am a bad terrible influence on my brother, on my little siblings. i'm such a failure, why am i alive!?!

how sad can i get? i lost everything in a blink of an eye, i lost everything in a day! everything!

dear boysxz, i'm sorry. i'm not happy for you so you don't have to contact me anymore cause i wont pick up and reply the phone.

i'm finally out of words, it sucked. you make everything seems so real, yet it's so fake! i'm sorry i'm a sucker for this, hopeless romantic, bullshit. and if you really miss me, you boys need to grow up and come and see me .. cause i'll be right here waiting for you! (':

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Title : forgive me, will you?

im being honest to my parents and i know its a sin and thats stupid, and sorry to say that ive just got my tongue pierced. im very sorry to dissapoint you and i knot that you're going to get angry and mad at me .. i feel like ive failed at being a good daughter, sister, and as a friend too because it shows a bad influence on me.

honestly, i feel so stupid because i dont have the courage to face all of you and reality too because i always do things without thinking. i miss the old me, the old sabrina. i miss the innocent me! but dont worry because i plan to take out all of my piercing pretty soon, most prolly by end of this month/year .. insyallah!

im quite so dissapointed with myself, and i hate myself at the moment for all these things that ive done.

dear all, please don't get mad/cry for me for what i've done. it won't be easy. i need sometime for myself, sometime for me to change but i can't promise you much on that!

please dont blame yourself baba ibu for not giving your love and being too strict to us because that's not the reason for me not being me. i broke your trust, and i broke your heart like a broken mirror. it just falls apart like shattered glass.

im sorry, and i promise you not to do anything stupid without thinking twice, not anymore! im sorry that i love y'all :(

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Title : actually, you dont know how i feel.

i am scared of confessing. i dont worry but all i know is everything's gonna be alright.

will i ever know how it feels to hold you close? you've been on my mind i grow fonder every day, only god knows. you got a bad attitude, but i dont care at all what you done before. its hurting me deep inside, and after all is said and done, i know i'll gain it back somehow.

i fucking admit, i am an extremely jealous girl. i'm not going to deny it. it's an emotion i control but i just can't. because them boys makes me feel like i'm never good enough and i hate that feelings :'(

holy shit .. sometimes, things we expect the most could lead us to dissapointment. i wonder where ive gone wrong. why is it not possible for someone whom i love so dearly accept me for the way i am? isnt life supposed to be about accepting and forgiving? life is indeed infair. why are you making life difficult for me? i felt silly, after you kissed me and all, seriously whatever happened to all the promises?

i thought you were fine, after all the things we've been through. like the love and care we had, it was magic. but all i want is to feel belonged. to you and no one else. im so lost. nevertheless, i still love you as much.

when i was falling, you werent there to even pick me up. you dont even feel sad for me. i tried to stop you from leaving, i tried to understand your situations, i tried to make you stay, i tried to tell you that i love you. but you never ever once tried to understand me, my feelings. after all the test you've put me through, i still want you, boysxz. i hate that i love you for what you've done to me.

yours truly; ♥

Hi, im Nur Sabrina.
I love my name, it's awesome, don't you think so?
Still in my teens and i live my life to the fullest, with no regrets.
Always thought that im a princess,
And most importantly i believe everyone deserves to be respected.