for what it's worth

my confessions is for what it's worth

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Title : Salam Lebaran

ive been so strong but ive never failed to cry as much as i did upon hearing the takbir raya every year. there are just too many things running through my mind, too many memories, perhaps the reason is because i've not gotten over the fact that both arwah atok haron & wawa has left us.

time flies so fast. it really breaks my heart, because ive sinned alot!

i still remember the day when mum left us of the first day of raya few years ago, leaving us behind celebrating it with baba alone. incomplete family, but now im glad we're back together :')

"jika jiwa sebening air, maka jangan keruhkan. jika hati seputih awan, jangan mendungkan. raih kemenangan dengan saling memaafkan"

i seek forgiveness for every sin ive committed from allah that he may forgive me, but somehow somewhat someday, i dont know how to seek forgiveness from my parents. i'll just cry like there's no tomorrow.

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin. maafkan segala dosa-dosa sabrina dengan seikhlas-ikhlasnya dan halalkan makan minum, dan segalanya ...

salam sayang,

Nur Sabrina ♥♥

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Title : feelings; no trust no relationship no friendship no nothing.

i saw what you did to what i gave you. broke me apart inside. is that how you actually treat something that is supposed to mean something?

"Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak"

i nearly gave up on you but why did you have to hug & kiss me again? just what are you trying to say to me? quit playing arond with my heart. i just want to know what do you want from me? you keep me hanging on a thread so pelase tell me something before its too late, before i give up on you. i know ive tried my best to make it up for all my wrongs and everything to you. stop pushing me away and then pulling me back to you.

after all is said and done, ive seen im not the lucky one. im so dissapointed in you, i just cannot stand the way you do. i dont know which i would rather believe, that you never did care or that you eventually stopped. im not gonna compete for you, you either want me or you dont. not so little you and i anymore.

while i was holding on, all you did is to let go. for a few minutes you made me feel as though i actually meant something to someone.

nothing left unsaid, i dont want to dwell in the past. im living in a lie, maybe you're better off without me. im torn stuck in between two :(

you left me waiting, im hating. everything you said to me .. lies, over and over again repeating in my head. im not gonna call/text you till you contact me first, i'll be waiting.

well im almost finally, finally out of words. i hate being this confused, it hurts!

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Title : you're back, you're not sorry.

be yourself, dont change yourself for anyone else. its not worth it, not at all!

i really think that ive to stop texting you. were my words too harsh!?! thank me for saying it on their face that he's a jerk, boys are jerk jerky boys .. im not being mean, im just being straight forward. i dislike you, i really dislike boys and girls for some reason. because of that, they're not picking up my calls and replying my text messages.and come to think of it, if boys are jerks, shouldn't girls be the biggest bitch!?!!! :/

im sorry, i cant be what you want me to be but im not gonna change. im sorry i cant be with you :(

you apologize to me and im suprised that you have really change yourself, not like before!

im so close to being yours after so long leaving me just like that but sadly to say, i belong to someone else.

my past hurt me so bad and thats the reason why i dont want to talk about it. i dont want it to be the reason for me to cry again.

it wont hold us together, we can never be friends. you left me again, just like before and stop giving me false hope, ive had enough! :(

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Title : nowhere to be found

You people are nowhere to be found and I know that you won’t believe me and I know it won’t seem right. When we’d argue and we’d fight and even as we stumble through the darkness and the light, you know these were the best years of our lives.

Wherever you go, I am here to listen and talk to you.

Thank you for standing by my side and you’re the reason I feel that the real me I don’t have to hide.

You’re a good friend and I think you’re the best because you’re certainly a special person, better from the rest. Not only that, you’re certainly one of a kind and guess what? It’s ok cause I don’t mind and thank you so much and you know what I mean because you were my dream, but now it’s exactly as it seems.

How can I forget all that? I can’t believe that we’re still here together and I’m sorry for all the hurt that I’ve caused you.

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Title : Professional Sebastian

15 & 17 august, 2o11.

Professional Sebastian Hair Model @ P&G Wella Studio, Park Mall.

we have butterflies in our stomach, feeling nervous thinking about it.

we're lucky getting involved as a model in this event.
hairstylist, makeup artist, and runway.
runway!?! yes, runway helps us to build self-confidence.

overall it was a fun yet tired day, had a great experience.

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Title : first of august, first day of ramadhan.

assalamualaikum, are you ready to fast in the fasting month of Ramadhan?

so today is 1st of august, 2011 = the start of ramadhan and the first terawih begins ytd night. so basically, i was supposed to go for terawih prayers with my family but sadly, im having my menses.

kalau boleh nak puasa full this year tapi sayangnya, datang bulan :(
anyway since ramdhan is a blessing month, insyallah i'll start to mengaji and sembayang back again! :B

ya allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan semangat untuk menghadapi semua cabaran dan cobaan ini.

terhadap umat islam yang lain, janganlah puasa yok'yok. ingat tuhan, tkmo nak ingat raya aja k?
hehehe, selamat berpuasa semua! :D

yours truly; ♥

Hi, im Nur Sabrina.
I love my name, it's awesome, don't you think so?
Still in my teens and i live my life to the fullest, with no regrets.
Always thought that im a princess,
And most importantly i believe everyone deserves to be respected.