for what it's worth

my confessions is for what it's worth

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Title : takecare, till we meet again!

i like the fact that i can change people to be a better person when they're with me. they change themselves not for my sake, but they sacrificed themselves at their own will with my help. yes, im bad on my own way and i wont let them follow my shitty steps. and actually, they're worse than me but whatever! i mean if they're willing to change, then why not!?!

imma kind of girl who's like, if you're contacting me, better stick to one! dont go away contacting others, cause i fucking hate it, and stop giving me false hope by doing it so and you should consider yourself lucky if im still with you cause i tend to avoid alot of attention.

it's killing me! i feel so incredibly empty, lost, worthless and depressed inside :'(

im not assuming things, and what i saw may not be what i think! and idk whether you boys are sweet talking me or not but whatever it is, just to let yknow that i hate the fact that its hurting me, really bad that i even cried out loud while typing this .. :'(

sorry to say, just like what i thought, i am not having any high hopes and im not even expecting something in return! not at all ..

its like yknow, "you broke your promises, just like you broke my heart."

your promises, our promises, remember!?!

dont tell me that all these while is just pretend cause if it really is, then i really got nothing left to say .. i'll be get really pissed and from there you'll know the reason why i said that

" ___ are ___"

im not gonna say much, im pretty done sad about it and dont worry cause i'll still be waiting for you boys to contact me back! :/

and for now, all i can do is like what you said to me before that ive to overcome all those unwanted feelings cause you believed that i can stay strong in every shits, in every situations. yes, i will!

and honestly, my life would suck without you and whatever ive said all these while, are sincere thoughts from the bottom of my heart :')

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Title : you've changed

im glad that you've changed! not from bad to worse, but to someone new, changed to someone better.

i was touched by your words. you were supposed to go for reporting today at 10.30am but yet, you give it a miss just because you dont want to go back in again so soon for another 9 months. you told me that you want to spend more time outside before going in back and you promise to take care of me and not to leave me aside anymore just like before.

"i promise to take care of you, abeh bila i dah kat dalam nanti, sapa nak jaga you? you cant even take care of yourself, sabrina"

you told me too that you wont be giving me any false hope cause you dont want me to hurt myself out here and you told me that you want me to be strong and overcome all those unwanted feelings in me but whatever it is noi, i want you to make your decision wisely as for me, yknow i'll be waiting.

i cry myself to sleep after reading the text message that you've had sent me. you told me not to worry about you cause yknow how to deal with it and 'IF' you were have to go back in again, you'll make sure that it'll be right after my birthday ..

everyone deserves a second chance, but only at certain circumstances where a second chance should be given.

favour, please dont create anymore trouble cause i dont want you to go back in again and again. if whatever happens for a reason, then whats the reason for all this. and for now, all i can say is that im sorry & goodluck for your future endeavors :'(

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Title : you made your choice, and it wasnt me.

but sadly, they're all not the same guy and all i need is love.

therefore, im leaving everything behind with only memories to start a new fresh life :')

and i know that its entirely my fault

:'(

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its over between us for now, but im still hoping. you told me to move on, but why must you changed yourself after things fell apart!?! why oh whyyy ... trust me, im happy if you're happy and for everything that has happened, there's a reason behind it. no matter what, im sure there's a way out.

i just want the best for you, boy. im sorry, cause i just dont want to hurt you anymore :(

so yesterday, i had a good talk with my parents about recent issues, about everything and anything just between us three. but obviously, i didnt talk to them about guysxz. i need a shoulder to cry on, i seem to fuck up. i need someone to talk to, anyone who'll listen.

glad that mom is understanding, and dad is atleast ok with it. they're so loving, but sometimes, they're being a bitch too -.-

somehow, i feel good after letting it all out but i feel so sad and lonely at the same time too. boysxz are jerks, they come and go and leave me aside :'(

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Title : imma heartbreaker

mistakes are painful, but as time goes by it becomes a collection of experiences called lessons.

08 september 2009 - 08 september 2011

2 years of love, i couldnt believe it!

good things dont last, and now its over between us :'(

everything happens for a reason, but at some point of time .. i love talking to you, knowing that you get me. and everytime i talk to someone else it just reminds me of how much they dont.

for everyday starting today, i'll miss you. for every hour, i need you. for every minute, i feel you. for every second, i want you. forever, i'll remember and stand by you, im sorry that i love you.

Labels: i smurf you

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Title : stuck in the moment

if whatever happens for a reason, then whats the reason for all this.

love hurts, but whatever. i know i lost it, but i'll gain it back somehow. just when i thought that life had gotten better, it just got worse but life's getting better. with or without you, love.

at times like this, i wish you boysxz were here witnessing me reminiscing the times we had together. how you assured me that its all going to be okay, but it doesnt work anymore.

you're happy if im happy, but whats the point of hurting yourself too? like what ive said - you're not mine and ive no rights to stop you. being friends after being for so long is one of risk we're taking. i love you, but i dont think i can have you anymore.

im not sure whether im ready to face this tmr or not, but all i can say is that everything's gone but im still hoping. i know that you'll love me forever and always but i cant, i tried. i dont even know if i was trying, never really wanted to cry.

i know that im being a bitch and i feel that i was drunk during the whole relationship :/

im struggling through everything, and ive made up my mind that im not gonna let anyone hurt me anymore and am not gonna hurt their feelings too.

tomorrow is our 2nd year anniversary and i really dont wish it to end it here just like that. i couldnt believe it, but im doing the best i can, the best for me. a new beginning, all by myself.

im not gonna cry, instead i'll smile because im glad it happened, im glad we happened, im glad we met, and im glad we were together. im glad that you were once a part of me, really!

give me some time to get over it, because im stuck between three and im not leaving because of third party, really! i just need some space .. all alone.

both astro & fatar, they're being a jerk too! korang carik aku bila boring tapi bila aku contact korang, perangai maintain ahk fikir aku buat pakai, apa kirakan kelakar ah sial!?! __

howells, good things dont last but i want you to be here like you used to. reality hit me hard, and i simply hate feeling this way :(

Labels: goodbye

yours truly; ♥

Hi, im Nur Sabrina.
I love my name, it's awesome, don't you think so?
Still in my teens and i live my life to the fullest, with no regrets.
Always thought that im a princess,
And most importantly i believe everyone deserves to be respected.